Wednesday, September 17, 2014

A little ray of sunshine.....

As you can see, I haven't blogged in over 3 months. Which also means, I haven't been following any of the plans I had made to lose weight and get healthy. LIFE HAPPENED. I can make as many excuses as I want, but the truth is, I just didn't have the motivation. I sunk into a bit of a depression and I just didn't care. The problem is that I've been smiling on the outside, but crying on the inside. Here is what has happened over the past 7 months....

~My husband & I separated after 20 years of marriage
~I moved into my own home which I am renting from my best friend
~I'm sharing my children 50/50 with my ex
~I lost my full time job in May

I'm not using all this as an excuse, but I sort of am. All of those things made me just not give a crap. Going through a divorce is not as easy as I thought it would be. Being lonely sucks. Being alone sucks. I just had no motivation to get out and do anything....let alone exercise.

Now, you're probably wondering why I titled this post "A little ray of sunshine" when all I've talked about is depressing stuff!! Well, sometime in August a little ray of sunshine entered my life......in the form of a guy :-)

He's a friend that I've known for a very long time, but our paths crossed a few times over the summer. One night after a little liquid courage, I decided to text him & make the first move. We started talking every day and soon after we went on our first date. A REAL DATE. He opened doors for me and everything...hehe. Ever since that first text, we've been inseparable. We have so much in common and he makes me smile everyday. We both are going through a divorce and we are the breath of fresh air we both needed. I didn't realize how lonely I was until he came along.

He makes me want to be a better person. I mentioned to him that I want to lose weight and be healthy and he wants the same thing for himself. We made a deal that we are going to do this together. I'm excited that I have someone to be by my side cheering me on. And I'm glad I can be the same for him.

My motivation is back and I am so looking forward to keeping up with this blog. Things are looking up and I'm excited to share it with the world ;-)

Tuesday, July 1, 2014

Eating habits

Well, it's been 4 days since I started my new diet, um.....lifestyle! Since Saturday I've been counting calories. I'm using the MyFitnessPal app and so far so good. BUT, starting tomorrow, I'm going to switch to counting Weight Watchers Plus points. I want to see how I feel when doing both and then I will decide which plan I want to continue with.

For the past 4 days I've felt pretty good. I used My Fitness Pal to determine how many calories I need to stay under and I honestly haven't felt hungry and deprived at all. I've been eating as clean as I possibly can, but there are some things I can't give up. NUTELLA being one of them. OH.MY.HELL do I love nutella!! I used to just take the lid off the jar and eat it with a spoon. So instead, I've been measuring it out and I was surprised by how much a tablespoon really is. 1 serving of nutella is 200 calories for 2 TBSP. I measured it out and put it on a whole wheat english muffin and I was FULL. So full that I put the banana that I planned on having back in the fridge.

 1.) Whole Wheat English Muffin w/ nutella & banana 285 calories
2.) 1 cup fat free cottage cheese & 1 cup strawberries 209 calories
 3.) BIG Salad with cucumber, tomato, light italian dressing, salsa, cottage cheese 340 calories
4.) Roast (6oz)  with celery(4 stalks) & carrots(6oz) 418 calories
*just a few examples of some things I've eaten (not all in the same day LOL)

One thing I've realized over the past few days is that I wasn't necessarily eating alot before, I was eating the wrong foods. Alot of junk. Alot of fast food. I've pretty much went cold turkey on that crap. I'm actually finding it hard to eat 1,300 calories, but I know that I can't go any less than that. Once I start exercising alot more, I'll re-evaluate my calorie intake.

Just a few of my favorite foods right now. I don't eat the celery raw, I throw it in with crockpot meals. LOVE it cooked!

So, as of Saturday June 28, 2014, I gave up..........
~Fast food! No more quick runs through McDonald's, Culvers, DQ, Sonic......!
~Soda! No diet, no regular, none!
~Ice Cream.....oh my ice cream.....I would marry it if I could!
~Fried foods!
~Alcohol...for the most part. I may have a glass of wine every so often
~Candy! *except for the peanut butter cup I had yesterday. But I counted the calories for it*

Saturday, June 28, 2014

The 1st time on the scale in 3 months......

I haven't been on the scale in almost 3 months. The last time I weighed I was 198.8 so today I was totally expecting to be at least that or maybe even over (GULP) 200. But to my surprise I was 194.8. It's only a 4 pound difference, but hey, 4 pounds is 4 pounds.
I've been thinking about what I want my goal weight to be & I realized that I don't even really know what a normal weight is for me. My senior year of high school I only weighed 95 pounds. As soon as I graduated, I started gaining weight and didn't stop. According to Weight Watcher's "ideal weight" chart my "normal" weight is 97 pounds-127 pounds. I am only 5 feet tall so I am currently in the obese category. UGH.....that sounds so horrible. So as of right now, I'm thinking I should aim for 115 pounds or so. That's almost 80 pounds to lose! Sounds like a huge task, but since I didn't gain the weight overnight, I know I'm not gonna lose it overnight. One step at a time.

Tomorrow: Measurements & "before" photos YIKES!!!

Reality check

Wednesday was my birthday, I turned 39.......wow.....I can't believe this is the last year of my 30's. A while back I mentioned to my sister that I would like to join a gym, but really didn't want to pay for it. Well, for my birthday this year she asked me if I really wanted to join the gym because if I did, she would gift me a membership for my birthday. Of course I couldn't say no! And this is one gift I do not intend to waste! This was the kick in the ass I needed to get me going!!
She signed me up online and all I had to do was go in & sign the paperwork and take a tour. My membership allows me 24/7 access to the gym & tanning beds. They have classes & trainers also which I can't wait to try! I can also bring a friend with me everytime I go to workout! I have friends and a few family members that go there so I wont be lacking in people to go with. Oh, and lets not forget that I got a tshirt too ;-)

The facility is brand new and it is really nice. I can't wait to get started. Tomorrow is the 1st day I'm going so I will let you all know how it goes :-)