Wednesday, September 17, 2014

A little ray of sunshine.....

As you can see, I haven't blogged in over 3 months. Which also means, I haven't been following any of the plans I had made to lose weight and get healthy. LIFE HAPPENED. I can make as many excuses as I want, but the truth is, I just didn't have the motivation. I sunk into a bit of a depression and I just didn't care. The problem is that I've been smiling on the outside, but crying on the inside. Here is what has happened over the past 7 months....

~My husband & I separated after 20 years of marriage
~I moved into my own home which I am renting from my best friend
~I'm sharing my children 50/50 with my ex
~I lost my full time job in May

I'm not using all this as an excuse, but I sort of am. All of those things made me just not give a crap. Going through a divorce is not as easy as I thought it would be. Being lonely sucks. Being alone sucks. I just had no motivation to get out and do anything....let alone exercise.

Now, you're probably wondering why I titled this post "A little ray of sunshine" when all I've talked about is depressing stuff!! Well, sometime in August a little ray of sunshine entered my life......in the form of a guy :-)

He's a friend that I've known for a very long time, but our paths crossed a few times over the summer. One night after a little liquid courage, I decided to text him & make the first move. We started talking every day and soon after we went on our first date. A REAL DATE. He opened doors for me and everything...hehe. Ever since that first text, we've been inseparable. We have so much in common and he makes me smile everyday. We both are going through a divorce and we are the breath of fresh air we both needed. I didn't realize how lonely I was until he came along.

He makes me want to be a better person. I mentioned to him that I want to lose weight and be healthy and he wants the same thing for himself. We made a deal that we are going to do this together. I'm excited that I have someone to be by my side cheering me on. And I'm glad I can be the same for him.

My motivation is back and I am so looking forward to keeping up with this blog. Things are looking up and I'm excited to share it with the world ;-)